It took almost 7 years

After almost 7 years with my firm I finally had my breakdown...and when I say breakdown I mean I freaking CRIED in front of the project manager. Unbelievable. What is so frustrating is that this is all due to my client counterpart - I CANNOT stand working with this woman. She absolutely drives me crazy because she is worthless. She can't think for herself, can't make a freaking decision, wants people to do all of her work for her, "delegates" and makes excuses for not turning in work when due, she doesn't DO any work - she just talks to people and complains about how busy and stressed she is. So although we had a heart to heart the beginning of this year where she pretty much told me she can;t deal with the way I treat her - I softened up for 2 months but the bad behaviors are back. And they are getting worse where she comments on the fact other people notice how annoyed I am. This environment is so unhealthy. I am working my ass off, running around with so many moving pieces, and dealing with a team that sucks.

So I want out. I can't find any decent job postings though and I swear I will never find a job in SF. I just want to stop - take a break - go shopping, get my nails done and massages...and I guess I could do this but then where do I get my $$??!!

On a happier note - I can;t wait for VEGAS!!!!!!!

This really sucks

I am pissed. Isn;t it enough that I am miserable at work and I barely take any breaks for some ME time? Even though the client bans certain websites like gmail and crap, thanks to the powers of my company VPN I could still access my stuff. Now for some LAME reason my co. has taken this gift away and I am left with an error message and warning that the client is watching my every move:( I am sooo bummed - this absolutely sucks. I don't know how people work like this. I just can't take it!!!!!!!!!!!

damn it's been foreva

WOW - it has been over six months since I posted! Well not worth going over the past year but here are some highlights:

Had the BEST christmas vacation ever. Since my dad is in Peru I went to SD to hang with MAC's family. His sister was there and this is the first time we have spent the holiday with her which was great! Her BF came too and he was super fun. We then went to MAC's cousin's wedding in Long Beach where I FINALLY met some of his extended family...and they were super cool!!! He has some great cousins and I had a blast chatting with them. We then headed off to Aspen for new years. What an amazing place - I've been to Denver before but had no idea how gorgeous the mountains in CO are. Did one day of snowboarding where the powder was perfect. It was pretty damn cold but we could tough it out! Thanks to MAC's connection, we were able to stay in some like private club cabin which was so nice. The best part was really the people - there were some AMAZING people and it was so nice meeting such fun, successful peeps from all over the states.

We went to NY a few months ago and we were able to see Anne who I haven't seen it like FIVE years! Hung out with Deitz and her fabulous new man! Then saw Lisa A and Leah M which was random but very nice - they took us to some very cool bar in some fancy part of the city.

still working in lovely Irwindale and I am scheduled to be here till end of year. GROSS. job hunt is not quite working for me so I am sticking with this for now.

I am published!!! My ex co-worker M2 - the one who owns Stitch in the Hayes - published her second sewing book and I am a MODEL! haha! me and my sis are in the book and it is hilarious! This is totally my big break right?! Oh and I am posted on myspace as fan of the month for my favorite local band the 100 days - it's amazing that i have been following this band for seriously THREE years!

Discovered a new band which ROCKS. Von Ida - chick band with an edge! they were so fun watching live and I can't wait to see their next show.

Goals for this year. I want to play more sequence! More game nights! I want to go to Vietnam. I want to find a job in SF that does not require travel. I want to MOVE out of this apartment. I want centralized air conditioning, a second bedroom and bathrom. Sucks that this is just not a possibility given rent these days. I want to see more shows. And I want to get back to posting blogs!

ez so niceeeee

it is SO nice outside it is just ridiculous! I have NEVER seen a SF summer like this before and I REALLY hope it continues...thanks to global warming huh? grrr...so sad that we have no ozone:(

working from home has been DAMN nice - bad for my work ethic though since I have barely pulled in like 6 hrs of work a day! I get to go to happy hour, hang out with my sis, catch some shows - life is good. This really inspires me to have MAC get rich and me retire. like NOW.

so what's new...I'm interviewing my little heart out - which has been great practice and confidence booster. It is fun talking about myself:) oh did I mention that I got dissed for my "early" promotion? yeah I love how they are telling me it is early when it is clearly an arbitrary (sp?) number. I made such a strong case for this and just got the shaft. whatever - supposedly they are going to make up for it through Comp...we'll see!

cuz I'm a blonde

I have a thing for blonde women...MAC knows it - I claim I hate them but I'm just jealous. You can seriously have a fugly face but from far away - you see a blonde head, it just equates to hot. It catches your eye and forces you to check her out. And then you ask a blonde if they have more fun and they will say yes. So - how can I experience life as a blonde? I obviously would have a hard time pulling it off, but I just wish I could test it out! I'm thinking that maybe one day I will try and do a miss richi and just go for it. She ain't no blonde but her hair is pretty damn light and I think it looks good. That would be hell of expensive to maintain...but I just want to try it once!!

go butch - meet famous people

my friend was an escort at the GLAD awards. He escorted rebecca romain-whatever her name is! freaking crazy - I want to meet someone famous and then glare at them for making so much money for doing nothing:P

so I've posted my resume online...and have been pretty happy with the responses I've received...looks like my experience is somewhat valued by other companies:) still can't imagine leaving here but lordy I can't stay here forever right?!

going to a show tonight and I am so excited!

slowing down

wow it's been a month since my last post. I can't believe it is almost May...which means I am almost turning ANOTHER year older:( this whole getting old thing is truly getting old. I am over it - I really am not a fan of the wrinkles slowly forming around my mouth, or the fact that my knees hurt after 20 minutes of running, that bending down and trying to get back up is painful. I am still feeling that unrest of wanting something more with my life, but not sure what. I am starting to think about taking a sabatical - can you imagine just months off of work? If it wasn't for the money I would be on this in a sec.

so in happier news, mac just got me some juicy boy shorts!! I love these underwear!!! he is so nice:) but I wonder if it benefits him more than me since they are so damn cute!

I've sewn a total of 4 shirts now. I really enjoy wearing them out even though you can totally see the pen marks from my tracing and my fabric is not quite yet cut the right way and the neckline is funky, but I made it! Deep down I am hoping that somehow I become fashionable and learn to make some hot clothes then sell them and become famous and rich:) well, who needs famous, I just want money and yea, I am not ashamed of that!