life goes on

I feel like I haven't posted in years! Obviously no one cares since none of ya'll mentioned anything. HAHA I tease! Let me rattle off some updates...I am working in Irwindale which has the worst air quality in like the nation! I am taking hip hop classes with andrea and we have a freaking recital in April! We also have the chance to perform at Great America - HAHH!!! How hilarious is that? MAC's bday is coming up and I have no idea what to get him. MAC and I are doing really well (if you ask me) so now I am getting all needy and wondering - where is my ring?! I have NOT been to tahoe yet which is dumb - but there hasn't been much snow:( I continue to try and manage my spending but continue to spend too much on clothes and still feel like I have nothing to show for it. My face keeps on breaking out which is abnoral for me - think it has to do with the weather down here. Dad is going to Peru for a month so went back home to say goodbye. Been to a couple of show over the past few weeks and I am LOVING it. Got some more coming up and I can;t wait. My bday is coming up and I still want to have a jato-palooza with my fav bands but doubt this will work out!

On a sad note - had another death in the family. One of my cousins was murdered in her home with her 3 children in bed. She was also a few months pregnant. This happened a bit back and I had a damn hard time heading back home for the services. She asked to be buried next to my mom - which I have mixed emotions about. On one hand it is kind of comforting to think that they are together. On the other hand, I will always have her tragedy to think of when I go visit my mom. Yes I realize that is just selfish but it does change things.

On an annoying note - I am really just confused about what to do with my life. I still struggle with being a workaholic and having my weekends crammed with trying to hang with my peeps. What's the point? Work, work, work for money that I keep on spending but try to save cuz I want a freaking house and dog and I want a real life cuz this all seems like bullshit. no purpose, no meaning, how can I be content?