in the eye

walking outside, enjoying the sun, and a freaking bug flies right into my eye. I am in the middle of the street, screaming at MAC to take it out. He keep on trying to swipe it out of my eye and i am still freaking out and telling him to hurry up and he is trying so hard to not stick his gym sweat-infested, barbell holding fingers in my eye. what a nice guy. he got it out, I felt like an idiot on the street corner! but of course, I couldn't have been any different looking than all the other crazies on the street:)

another "holiday" weekend to part-ay. I wish I had an ounce of a creative gene to think of something to wear. So far what I got is recycling my prior costumes, which would make me a cop pirate in the 80s. Too bad I can't find the cop gear or the 80s outfit.

10 years

so sad - it is almost that time for the 10 year reunion. AHHH!! so crazy that here I am almost hitting the big 3-0! I am actually pretty excited - although our SIX year reunion was swell and all, I am hoping more people come for the 10 year. still feel like not much has changed since HS, I still hang out with my gals from school - see some randoms every now and then since a lot of them live in the city.

I am off to Oregon next week then seattle for a day. after all of this travel I am still nto going to have status at sheraton - that sucks! what's the point of so much travel if I can;t have status!!!

what to do

in an elevator, three men. Me and a guy against the back of the elevator, one guy to the right front and one guy in the middle. first floor, door opens, I wait for either the guy on the right or the guy in the middle to step out. No one moves. I am looking at them like, are you waiting for me? the guy steps to the side for me to pass. I HATE THIS! I hate not knowing what I should do, how old someone has to be for me to let them first, if I should just go ahead every time.

it's happening again

I am starting to feel inadequate at work. Nothing major really, and not like this keeps me up at night, but there have been a few incidents where I am just like, crap I am idiot. I feel like as a consultant, coming into a company I am supposed to know everything. And I feel like that because clients do expect this, as they should - since they pay for our expertise. But some things I am just like come on people, I can't freakin think of everything and manage every damn thing that might be barely related to the project.

I am definitely a lot calmer this time with my first project in a couple of years that requires me to travel. I am less stressful at work and putting limits on how much time I dedicate to work. But these little things still get to me:(