denied

After all my excitment and resume preparing and my first round interview, I got DENIED a position as a recruiter within my company. I was really pumped about this position - it just seemed like the stars were aligned and this position opened up at the perfect time and I found out in a haphazhard way and it was just meant to be. I interviewed with two ladies and thought I could totally do this job but then I called her on friday and she let me down softly. She did give me hope though - that it would be an easier transition for me to apply for an undergrad recruiter role (I was applying for advanced degree). So my search is not over just yet, but I am now remotivated to kick some ass in my current position.

Have to say I had quite a great weekend and now I am recovering. I got drrunkkkity drunk on fri night. Yup - I got home at 3 in the morning! who does that anymore???!! It was like 2:30 and there were like 5 of us left at this house party and none of us were even close to breathing that first yawn of sleepiness. Good times partying with some coworkers!

Goals for the year update - I am still looking to pick up some dancing, either formal classes or ladies nights out! I think my sis and I are going to take some salsa classes - sign up with me people!! salsa is soooo much fun:) Oh and I walked by the "S factor" office the other day. This is the sexy striptease dancing class which I believe is both aerobics and a self- empowering class. You know, get in touch with your inner sex pot or something. These classes are DAMMMNN expensive but might be worth it. I need some self empowerment these days!

hated it

I never used to buy trashy magazines cuz I would rather go on living my life not feeling like a complete loser compared to all these celebrity peeps. I didn;t want to get sucked into knowing what are the fashion trends, who is wearing what, what the latest hairstyle is, who looks best in a bikini, who has lost the most weight, who is dating who, and all that jazz. Unfortunately my 2 years of traveling for work led me to purchase US and In Touch at the airport every week. Now I am addicted and I hate it...or love it...whatever. It sucks though. I get soooo jealous that these celebrities can have it all and for doing what? spending a month on some set reciting some lines? and you get paid how much to do that??? It is just so unfair that I slave my life away in the corporate world to make 1/10th of what these stars make in like a month. how can it be so easy for them? and why do we choose to celebrate these actors and glorify them for doing nothing???

What pisses me off the most right now - or perhaps the girl I am most jealous of - is that damn kristin cavalluchi or whatever the hell her last name is. why in the world is she famous? she was followed around living her life on the beach and now she gets to be a celebrity and get invited to all the premieres and award shows and all this good stuff? Who pays her bills? how is she making money? she gets to have her own tv show now? WHYYY??? she is not an actress?! ANYONE can do what she does so why her??

How can I possibly let this all get to me? I haven't quite figured it out yet. I mean, I would not want to live that lifestyle but I would LOVE to have everything just come to me so easily and to never have to worry about the bills and buy myself some mansion like that 19 year old actor from malcolm in the middle who just bought like a 9 million dollar home or something ridiculous.

still at work

and it is 7pm. and I am not leaving anytime soon. I hate eating dinner so late:(

another holiday?

January is one messed up month. I mean 2 weeks of 4 work days is just crazy. It makes it hard to get back in the swing of things if you are getting another short week and you lose all motivation to work! No complaints or anything, but it does suck when no one else gets the damn holiday! I am speaking to yesterday - everyone was working and I for once had the holiday! Luckily my sis seems to never have to work so we got to hang out. Which of course means I spent money shopping. poop!

watched bachelor last night. damn there are some crraazzyy chicks out there. the guy is damn good looking. wonder what is wrong with him!

whhhhyyyy

I am really facing some internal struggle about what I want to do with my career. Looking at past blogs there is definitely a theme of my life crisis - needing to figure out what I am supposed to do with my life and if I am happy at my current company or if I want something else. So I thought I had made up my mind with the whole oh I could switch to a new group in my co. that would be good...decided to stay. and now I am back in the same boat. same co - different group. potential for a job...going to apply. who knows if I am a strong candidate since it is completely different from what I do. I hate the idea of starting from scratch. I hate not knowing what the right answer is. I hate that there might not be a right answer to what I should do. Hate is a strong word. I take it back. It makes me really uncomfortable not knowing.

One thing I do know is that I am definitely feeling restless. Something needs to happen. What I NEED to start doing is more "extracurricular" stuff! I always talk about how much I love dancing and yet I haven;t been to a club in how many years?! lame.

blog #1 2006

WHoo hoo this is my first blog of the new year! too bad it is going to be short and boring. ha! well...I had a great NYE, enjoyed my 1.5 week holiday, sad to be back at work, and I did not make a new years resolution! got my hair cut so I am happy, got a massage that was WEAK so that sucked. had an inspiring lunch with ex-co-worker and I am motivated to find a new place to do my 9-5 if you know what I mean! same industry I think...or back to my good old recruiting idea. I need to take some action! watched legally blonde last night - love that movie.

Tahoe time is coming:) excited to be a snow bunny - esp since now MAC and I have all our equipment to board. we should all coordinate a tahoe adventure!