whhhhyyyy

I am really facing some internal struggle about what I want to do with my career. Looking at past blogs there is definitely a theme of my life crisis - needing to figure out what I am supposed to do with my life and if I am happy at my current company or if I want something else. So I thought I had made up my mind with the whole oh I could switch to a new group in my co. that would be good...decided to stay. and now I am back in the same boat. same co - different group. potential for a job...going to apply. who knows if I am a strong candidate since it is completely different from what I do. I hate the idea of starting from scratch. I hate not knowing what the right answer is. I hate that there might not be a right answer to what I should do. Hate is a strong word. I take it back. It makes me really uncomfortable not knowing.

One thing I do know is that I am definitely feeling restless. Something needs to happen. What I NEED to start doing is more "extracurricular" stuff! I always talk about how much I love dancing and yet I haven;t been to a club in how many years?! lame.