all dolled up
It is only 2:00 on Friday and yet I have had such a WONDERFUL day! Here is why I am happy:
1) I came home and saw my MAC last night:)
2) I am in SF and it is pretty!!!
3) I got to hang out with my sister this morning and I had a fabulous time
4) I got a pedicure
5) I got waxed
6) I got some good work done
7) I had starbucks
8) I am eating cottage cheese and a banana
9) I got to wear my cute yellow coat for the first time
10) I get to celebrate MAC's bday tomorrow and hang out with our friends!
11) I get to see my dad tomorrow who has been off to Peru for the past month
12) I am making enchiladas tonight!
13) I saw DUKE today!!!
14) Jesus resurrects this weekend (I didn;t want to end on an unlucky #!)
Ok I will stop! Let me expand on some items here. I haven't seen my sister in forever and I was craving a big fat hug from her and some good conversation which is exactly what I got. I love my sister so much:) And pretty little DUKE is just precious! Ok so here is something that I can't believe I am sharing. I didn't get a typical wax. And I am sure misscurious is thinking oh please I've waxed everything before but you are wrong! I got my neck waxed! Little something you probably don't know about me - I HATE the baby hairs that run along the side of my neck. I mean HATE them. And I am totally self conscious about it too. Hair is hair and I should get over it but for now I will just wax it off! Weird huh?
I talked with my sister about our family and I told her how her blog comment really struck me re: the schiavo case. So something that I have yet to really share with anyone other than my sister and MAC is how I've been dealing with my mom being gone. I would love to one day be able to share my thoughts and emotions with my friends but I am not quite at that place yet. I want to try and start though. Here is a baby step for me: So I am making enchiladas for my dad tonight. He has been off in Peru preparing a place he got out in Miraflores. Totally exciting cuz now I will have a place to stay when I go visit Peru..whenever that is. Making enchiladas has turned out to be a little difficult for me. Not in actually preparing them but in what it means to be making them. My mom made the best enchiladas. I mean, Jefe was willing to bust out some major bling for a dozen. During college my mom would make me pounds of enchiladas to take back to school. She spent half the day preparing and cooking and everything. Not like she had time to do so but she would do it for me. My mom took good care of me - always wanting to make me happy. So basically my having to make them for myself just hits home that she will never be there to make them for me again. I can never go home and spend the day in the kitchen with her to make them together. That sense of love and care is forever suspended. She is forever gone. Not to end on a sad note. Just thinking about me and my mom making enchiladas at home makes me smile. And best of all - the first time she met MAC she taught us how to make them. That is so precious to me. Kind of like her passing on part of herself for us to carry on. I just hope I can do a decent job at it.
1) I came home and saw my MAC last night:)
2) I am in SF and it is pretty!!!
3) I got to hang out with my sister this morning and I had a fabulous time
4) I got a pedicure
5) I got waxed
6) I got some good work done
7) I had starbucks
8) I am eating cottage cheese and a banana
9) I got to wear my cute yellow coat for the first time
10) I get to celebrate MAC's bday tomorrow and hang out with our friends!
11) I get to see my dad tomorrow who has been off to Peru for the past month
12) I am making enchiladas tonight!
13) I saw DUKE today!!!
14) Jesus resurrects this weekend (I didn;t want to end on an unlucky #!)
Ok I will stop! Let me expand on some items here. I haven't seen my sister in forever and I was craving a big fat hug from her and some good conversation which is exactly what I got. I love my sister so much:) And pretty little DUKE is just precious! Ok so here is something that I can't believe I am sharing. I didn't get a typical wax. And I am sure misscurious is thinking oh please I've waxed everything before but you are wrong! I got my neck waxed! Little something you probably don't know about me - I HATE the baby hairs that run along the side of my neck. I mean HATE them. And I am totally self conscious about it too. Hair is hair and I should get over it but for now I will just wax it off! Weird huh?
I talked with my sister about our family and I told her how her blog comment really struck me re: the schiavo case. So something that I have yet to really share with anyone other than my sister and MAC is how I've been dealing with my mom being gone. I would love to one day be able to share my thoughts and emotions with my friends but I am not quite at that place yet. I want to try and start though. Here is a baby step for me: So I am making enchiladas for my dad tonight. He has been off in Peru preparing a place he got out in Miraflores. Totally exciting cuz now I will have a place to stay when I go visit Peru..whenever that is. Making enchiladas has turned out to be a little difficult for me. Not in actually preparing them but in what it means to be making them. My mom made the best enchiladas. I mean, Jefe was willing to bust out some major bling for a dozen. During college my mom would make me pounds of enchiladas to take back to school. She spent half the day preparing and cooking and everything. Not like she had time to do so but she would do it for me. My mom took good care of me - always wanting to make me happy. So basically my having to make them for myself just hits home that she will never be there to make them for me again. I can never go home and spend the day in the kitchen with her to make them together. That sense of love and care is forever suspended. She is forever gone. Not to end on a sad note. Just thinking about me and my mom making enchiladas at home makes me smile. And best of all - the first time she met MAC she taught us how to make them. That is so precious to me. Kind of like her passing on part of herself for us to carry on. I just hope I can do a decent job at it.
posted by chicajato @ 2:13 PM
8 Comments:
At 3:09 PM,
jen said…
I feel really privileged to be a reader of your blog- good for you for sharing! I think it's so special that your mom taught MAC how to make the enchiladas. There's something about moms and food that are special memories for all of us, I think.
p.s. When are you taking me to Peru?!
At 3:11 PM,
jen said…
Oh yeah, forgot to say it's pretty weird that you waxed your neck, but, ummm...whatever. I got waxed today too! But I am a scared little wuss and only removed hairs on my face. Couldn't bear to do the bikini even though G wishes I'd look like a porn star down there. He's never said that, of course, but don't most men?
At 3:33 PM,
Anonymous said…
Wow, I am so proud of you!! you really challenged yourself to share and be vulnerable in exposing your feelings re: mommy to others...and me! I think although we are both dealing with her loss, it is so comforting to hear how you share similar feelings and memories re: her as I do, and then have your own unique reactions as well. One thought for you re: cooking. Days after she died I took over the role of cooking for the family and it hurt so much to do that yet it also brought me a sense of closeness to Mommy and to this day, whenever I cook a dish she taught me, I tell myself and choose to believe that she is blessing the meal and through my hands is once again cooking and caring for me...she can do that for you too as long as you choose to believe it. I know she is guiding your hands and eyes when you make those enchiladas as will she forever guide you in all you do. I love you little sister, G
At 3:33 PM,
Anonymous said…
Oh, and I TOO had such a fantastic time with you this morning!! I love spending time with my sister:)
At 8:07 AM,
Krikri said…
Jackie - I'm with J-do on this one, it's so great to read all about your mom - you're so awesome for sharing (and as we all know, sharing *is* caring).
So on the waxing thing - ain't no shame in it, girl! I have had pretty much every part of my body waxed at one point or another, and it's not like I'm abnormally hairy, it's just that sometimes ya gotta keep it smoov. ALSO - Jdo - G *does* wish you looked like a porn star down there, believe me. I have never known a boy not to go apeshit over a nice brazillian wax. Don't be skurred, it's totally worth it! :D
At 8:39 AM,
Anonymous said…
Sorry I am a little behind on this - thanks for your blog today! We all love you and support you and want to hear whatever you are feeling, whenever you want to share.
How were the enchiladas?
:)
xoxo Linz
At 9:48 PM,
Anonymous said…
Jato, I never got to meet your mom so it's really neat to hear those kinds of stories. Thanks for sharing it here.
And neck waxing? Sounds painful!
BTW, I'm gonna roll with this nickname for awhile. But just know it's short for the San Fernando Valley, not the Central Valley! =)
At 12:36 PM,
Anonymous said…
Hey Jackie -
Hopefully you read this even though I'm a bit behind. I love what your sister said about your mama guiding your hands and eyes. I truly believe that the spirits of our loved ones are never far and that when your eyes are open to it, you will see your mom's spirit in your life all the time. The littlest things can be things your mom sends your way so that means she is always there with you. I am so glad that you are able to talk - even a little - about your mom and your loss. It will get easier and I think it will help you heal a little bit more and more.
Lots of hugs to you!!!
Oh - and on the porn star note - ladies - do not fear the brazilian! It's liberating and feels soo damn nice and clean. And it doesn't hurt that the man in your life (or men) ALWAYS love it! Just do it and love it!
- Lynz
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