no one would ever know

good thing I have a strong work ethic cuz I could be doing a whole lotta nothing this month. But no - I motivated and got myself staffed on a project ASAP. I am now out in Oakland - like 20 minutes closer than my last project! WHOO HOO! holiday was noneventful. MAC and I had some drama night 1 and 2, thanksgiving itself turned out pretty fun but end of the night I was getting out of control with my board game competitiveness. I give up. I refuse to play board games anymore! Even a nice little game of parcheesse (how the hell do you spell it?) can get my undies all in a bunch. Not worth the anxiety - no more games! Esp the ones that make me realize how freaking dumb I am. but not checkers. I am a checkers rock star. I'll play any of ya'll anytime. And if you win I might have to smack you.

Oh I did watch the traveling pants movie - the book was SOOO good but the movie was sooo bad! cute for kids and all but didn;t quite work for mature me. I am freaking EXCITED to go see Aeon Flux. LUVVVV that tv show! LUVVV Charlize. LUVV that I have free tickets!

Decision made

so not that excited but I did decide to stay with my group at work. I was contemplating transferrign to a new group which would have been cool but scared little chicajato couldn;t do it. I am happy with my decision - esp because I might get staffed out in oakland. Who knew I would EVER be excited to work outside of the city. As long as my ass is not on a plane I am content.

SOOO excited for the holiday this week! What the hell am I going to do for 4 days?! NOTHING!!!! YAYYYY!!!!

Yesterday some coworker is walking by and he does a double take and he says something like "wow that's a lot of hair". I am like, yeah I have curly hair. He is about to walk off and for some reason he stops himself and says " I used to have an afro"...I am like, oh well that is nice. You too have curly hair huh? and he is like "yeah but it is short now". I laughed, ho hum that is nice and walk away. So what exactly do you think this man was implying?! I have an afro therefore it reminded him of his good old hair days?!

it has started

I am dying to get home. I am so bored and yet I don;t want to get more tasks assigned to me! tomorrow is pretty much a day off since I have meetings booked througout the day. Mind you one of those meetings is getting my hair cut! I have been good about going every 8 weeks but this shit is expensive!

so this weekend Ihave to make a career decision. I have been offered a position within my company - different group though. It would be a COMPLETE change though. Details can be discussed in person but oh it would be wierd!! change is wierd!!!

maybe you all can tell me what I should do at the GAME!

holidays

UGH. Nov and Dec are just not happy months. too much going on. I am excited to go to the cirque show in nov...and if I didn;t screw things up then I think MAC and I are going to the nutcracker too! then it's xmas parties which are all nice and dandy except I am dreading my work one since I HAVE NO MORE FRIENDS AT WORK. Almost all my pals have left and now I am stuck with 21 year olds that don't have a clue. sad huh? I also have to go to montery for an OVERNIGHT meeting for work! My company overdoes this whole "communication" thing. I do NOT need to stay in monterey for 2 days just for them to give me updates on our practice.

ANTM TONIGHT!!! partayyyy!!!

you da model

so pissed - top model last night was a recap of prior episodes. BOO. show me some cat fights and runway walking! got to hang out with my hs gals which is always refreshing. so I think I've mentioned how I have written off one of my prior friends from like Kindergarten cuz she is a bitch. turns out my friend sarah went to one of our HS friend's wedding and this ex friend was there and since sarah barely knew anyone they got to talking and stuff. so now sarah has my ex-friend's number in her cell and she invited her to her housewarming. I was so pissed - but not actual pissed but fun to pretend I am pissed! this ex friend was a jealous bitch in hs and I supposed people can change so maybe she is all swell now but I still hate her. I don't hate her - I think she is a bitch.

tv is the devil

so I whine about how I have no work life balance since I get home eat dinner then sleep. yesterday I get at a reasonable hour and eat dinner and then proceed to watch 2 hours of TV. well, 1.3 since I fell asleep on the couch. It is so lame that all I would probably do if I did have more of a life during the week is watch tv. maybe not, after a while of just tv I would hope that I actually did something with my time, but I feel so lazy and unmotivated and it sucks. going home after work and then getting ready to do something else just seems like such a pain. always on the go is what bothers me - I hate feeling rushed and I feel like I don;t have time to just chill but when I do get that time I freaking watch TV. I don;t know what to do with myself. I would like to read and I have a test to study for and yet I dare not pick up a book cuz then I will fall asleep and it will be like 8:00 and that is just not ok. I wish I could start coloring or something. that's it - I am going to get some coloring books and rock the town.