Drip

Do my boobs really have to sweat so much?!!! I guess I am happy that I am not a facial sweater - or at least not that bad, but why is it that my boobs freaking sweat?? right down the valley - drip drip drip on my way to work. And do I have to have such freaking painful cramps right now? Hellz yeah I am PMSing and I am moody and my back hurts and I feel ill. freaking midol kick in anytime now. I would now like to share my most painful cramp memory:

in HS - went down to 6 flags down near LA with a friend. All was going well and then midday it hit. I felt nauseaus, ended up staring at the toilet for like an hour. Sucks to be stuck in a public bathroom at 6 flags when you are vomiting and crapping like a mad woman. after I pretty much have labor I go outside and can't move. I lay down, on the concrete in front of the bathroom with everyone walking by. My friend is such a doll for not making a big deal out of it. I toughed it out and went on some rides after that. Good thing my love for rollar coasters can outweigh anything (except my luv for MAC!).

damn I am PMSing

not only did I go off on MAC this weekend for no apparant reason but I totally just pretty much gave my cube mate the finger. I have had issues from day 1 but have done well to adapt I think. Deadline is approaching and all so people are a bit more on edge. Anyway - she totally just did something that pissed me off this morning and I was like "If I could I would totally kick you out of my cube" no laughing - straight faced. She was like " if I had a place to go I would be out of here". touche! Haven't spoken to each other since.

I totally feel bad now - but whatever. 2 more days. do I really have to apologize?

replay

I LUVD batman returns - saw it on fri and it rocked. Christian is hot - and I think the best batman to date! loved the character development -interesting the timing of this movie since star wars had their whole how it all began movie this year too.

I FINALLY got to see my HS gals this weekend and celebrate all of our bdays - from like back in april! MAC got to play some basketball sun morning so that was fun. I was in a bit of a funk during the weekend so I ended up sleeping A LOT. poor MAC had to put up with one moody GF. off to denver for my LAST TRIP!! I was totally hoping the hyatt would hook me up with a nice upgrade, but I ended up with a "lovely" corner room. yeah too bad lovely = the smallest room I've had this whole time. Funny to go from a suite at the westin to a corner room at the hyatt. Oh well. I am just hoping that I can get an upgrade to 1st class this thurs night! gotta end with a bang!

I am on a quest to update my ipod library with some new tunes. I only have 1oo songs right now and have to say I am getting quite bored with the shuffle of songs. Reccomendations are welcome and appreciated!

get away

sharing a cube is just all wrong. 3 months together and you think we are still going to get along? have you met me? My cube mate is so getting on my nerves. And there is nothing I can do since I am just stuck sitting next to this person until I go home...and of course today it is just us 2 flying back. great. like we really need more time together. all in good love I guess though. we totally are starting to quarel like sisters. reminds me of the good old days.

I am tired of hearing crap from people out here about how I am a "quitter" since I am not continuing on the project. It's like - sorry people - you are not that fun that I would sacrifice my life for the rest of this year and be away from home living in a crap hotel on the east coast (next phase was in NC).

can this day be over now???

nap time

So I am actually feeling like I am getting stuff done at work which is quite nice...but every week I swear I need more and more sleep. So I did it again. I took a nap. just laid my head back on the top of my chair and pretended to gaze out the window..which I somtimes do since there is so much construction going on around us and it is fun to watch! I probably got a good 15 minutes! Then this morning I was just a wreck. I think I had 5 wake up calls...3 from the hotel and 2 from my phone. Eventually got up at 7:35...decided that my hair looked just fine so I saved like 15 minutes in hair washing time! I totally should be able to get away with not washing my hair everyday and I know it is better for you, but I get so oily so fast:( Esp since I try to hit the gym in the morning - I think my hair gets kinda gross all sweaty.

It has been lovely weather out here...90's and I am liking it! Every day without fail there has been freaking thunder storms. this shit is scary, loud and yet so beautiful! I love just staring trying to find where the next bolt will develop! seeing the clouds like battling with each other is just damn cool.

Had a bug in my room yesterday morning. And yes I did scream and run around. Think it was a mighty big moth. It went in hiding so I ran out of the room and just hoped the cleaners would kill it! OH OH so my lovely suite at the westin has an amazing bathroom. I used the whirlpool spa since I needed to shave (had to wear a skirt since it is so hot) and of course the jets don't work. What';s the fun of having a suite if the jets don't work??!! And they don;t give me free bananas so I am not in love with the hotel

so much going on

I actually made a list of things I wanted to blog about! let's see if I can remember...

ok so this sat at the gym MAC and I were confonted with one of the most ANNOYING STANFURD chick in the world. so the first time I saw her I was completely annoyed because she is one of those people that brings over like 5 different chairs and straps and weights and stuff to an area and completely blocks off use of a machine to do stupid crap that should be done elsewhere. I mean there is a machine designed specifically for what she was doing and yet she felt the need to block off the machine we needed to do an inappropriate exercise. I hate her from day 1. So next time we see her I hate her already and she is once again blocking off a machine to do crazy wanna draw attention to myself exercises. This time she has a lame stanfurd boy with her. So MAC and I are doing our tricpes and all of a sudden we hear some groaning. Now every now and then I will let out a growl when I am in pain and lifting. however I sound like a man that growls which is funny if anything. So this girl continues to groan...louder and louder and longer and longer. Yes folks - she was having an orgasm while doing some cross overs. MAC and I were busting up but holding it in. I look all around and all these guys are turning their heads checking it out. But not in an excited way - more in a WHAT THE HELL IS THAT CHICK DOING??? it was so pathetic - get a room honey if that is how you work out. I wonder if she gets dates that way. It was just gross.

Oh so story #2. After all that talk about expensive facial products...I went back to Neimen's with my sis. this is a bad start for my wallet. so I get some more lovely products to keep my face smooth and I can;t help but look at the shoes with my sis. Minutes later we walk out of the store and I call MAC apologizing for splurging on a pair of shoes. they are freaking hot though. and brown - which I never buy so this is a big step for me!

ok more stories later...

My friend

I found out yesterday that a work person went to my friend's party last weekend. name game is played and they realize they both know me. No big deal right? Right. So why is it that I feel all protective of my friend? Sometimes I don;t like when the work life crosses over to my social life. And mind you I have nothing against work people - (well some of them irk me to no end). Certain work people I want all my friends to meet though...but not everyone. whatever. I will stop being so selfish.

Gross out note for the day: MAC just told me that their office kitchen is sooo nasty - no one cleans up after themselves AND they have freaking cockroches!!! IN THE BUILDING! How nasty is that? YUCK - I remember my old apartment living with 3 other people...our kitchen wasn;t THAT bad but we totally got cockroaches and NO ONE ELSE CARED except me!! Are you kidding me?? you don;t freaking care if one of those beasts comes running around the floor taunting you with its nastiness? I opened a kitchen cabinent and one of them was just frolicking around.

AND I remember when we were invaded by ants. that was freaking nasty too. A huge hoard of ants coming in from the downstairs bathroom and marching along to the kitchen pantry. Once again NO ONE else freaking cared we were living in filth so I had to vacuum them up. every last one of them. I hope they died from the heat of the suction but whatever. Vacuum goes in the closet so the ants can dance around all they want in there. I then taped up the bathroom tub since the plaster or whatever seemed to allow the ants entry to our home. I stop them damn it. I stop them fast. I am the terminator. or if you will the Exterminator.

ouch

Last night as I was about to turn off the tv - HBO came on with one of their fabulous documentaries. this one was on teens and drunk driving. They showed all these nasty accidents and the kids in the hospital and the parents fussing over them and scared and the surgeries and gross stuff like that. One of the kids had swelling of the brain so they showed the dr drilling a hole in the skull to relieve the tension. gross. then they showed the dr stapling the skin over the skull. gross. of course I can;t stop watching. So these kids are totally liek 15, 16 year olds and it's like - how the hell do you get so drunk?? Three boys pretty much finished off a liter of vodka then one of the boys fell 3 stories in the mall.

so the sad thing was one of the kids that was in a coma forever recovered and went through physical therapy and all that. and what happens when he is better? He starts hanging out with his friends again and partying. lesson obviously not learned. I mean this kid went through hell - they had no idea how he would turn out since he was in the coma for so long. I realize partying is fun and all but tone it down buddy. and if you are going to drink then freaking do it at someone's house and crash there! None of this driving crap. I cant; make up my mind about being a parent that allows parties at their house if the kids stay - or if you refuse to let parties happen and then your kid goes off and drinks then has to drive back home.

I am surrounded by a lot of tragedy right now. I mean watching that show last night, I dreamt about my mom last night, I am reviewing claim files for beneficiaries of deceased insureds, my coworker's cousin's husband is in critical care from a stroke or aneurism. I can say that I had a somewhat less than optimal day today. Looking forward to going home tomorrow. 2 more weeks people~

I live in a cell

I am currently surrounded by 6 stacks of claims files. I am enveloped in a mass of paperwork. Kind of nice - makes me feel like I have my own space that no one can intefere with - I mean right now no one can see my computer screen. I AM FREE!!!

It is lovely outside - funny how I sweat on my walk to work but not during my afternoon walk to get food. I think I must walk pretty briskly in the morning. slow down chica - work will still be there even if I get there 2 minutes later. I feel like I have to walk fast for some reason - like I am on a mission to get to work and no one can stop me. I guess I think that if I walk to slow people will stare and be like - who does she think she is walking all slow when she knows she has to get to work?! I would like to learn how to casually walk. I get uncomfortable with a big group of coworkers when everyone is just strolling along and I am like speed it up folks. I don't want to hang out with you all freaking day!

On a girly note - so my sister took me to a salon to get my nails and toes painted and when she went to pay I was in shock at how expensive the total was...I will not say cuz you all will think we are crazy but know that is was FREAKING EXPENSIVE! Of course I would never go back...or would I?! Turns out, I have never had a pedi or mani last for so long. I mean typically my nails are shot starting on day 1. they chip instantaneously - my nails break in a week, my hands are just nasty. So now it is like a month later - my nails have never been so strong and my bright pink pedi still looks good! Maybe it is worth it to splurge? or maybe not. Maybe I just don't need a mani and pedi. but I have nasty hands and my feet aren;t going to win any beauty contests. Do I always tell myself it's ok to splurge all the time?! I think I do which means I am never going to have money to buy a house!!! When do I give and when do I take?! Do I keep on buying my insanely pricey face products because the lotion is so soft and my face feels lovely? Do I continue to use eye cream even though I don;t really have to worry just yet?! or do i just use my over the counter eucerin which kicks ass? It's just not the same going to walgreens for facial products when I can go to a department store and feel snooty. I am lame I know. I am not a snoot I swear! but nice things are nice to have...as long as they don;t define me!

it is over yet?

MJ's trial is over today? they reached a verdict? how freaking excited to make this lame attention go away.

I had such a good weekend - I haven't seen this many of you in forever! LA on friday night turned out great - saw some college friends. Had a nightmare of a time trying to get my ass anywhere. I waited over half an hour for a stupid taxi that never came. I hate LA.

Sat flew back and said goodbye to the H's:( so sad. I am afraid the pendulum has started swinging and everyone is going to start leaving SF. DON'T DO IT PEOPLE!!! Bay area is cool!

Sun went with MAC to see star wars. to give you background - I hate SW. I want nothing to do with SW. It just seems so lame and sci fi. BUT I was intrigued by how the bad guy turns bad so I checked it out. Have to say I was a fan! really intense - so now I totally have to go back and see the other 5 (MAC had to explain how there were 5 more I had to see even though SWIII was supposed to be the last - hello 6 does not come before 3 - why number them all retarded!).

I got reprimanded by my fav person again. This time because I voiced my frustration that one of our team members has turned into the food biotch. Not her job and it is not fair. and if your taco salad didn;t come with a taco then deal with it. don;t freaking complain to us and demand we reconcile our orders to what we get. Go get food yourself as%.

did I do that?

Still on the work topic here! it's amazing to look back at my work life and really think about what I have done. During my first year I think I was shipped out to san ramon (I had to freaking take the bart for like an hour!!!) and while at the time I thought all I was doing is sending out letters to these employees, looking back this was a BIG deal! I was a part of an M&A post integration process and there was so much going on around me but at the time I was totally just like, don;t mess up the mailing address! I do believe that I have shown growth over the years and that does make me happy. I just need more validation from management that I am doing ok! give me some praise damn it! My problem is that I never see the good of what I am doing. And I always assume I am doing something wrong. I swear I need a poster board with gold stars on it to make me happy.

I love gold stars. And I love winning...I would win the 3 legged race every year in grade school and that made me proud. Give me my 1st place ribbon please:) Iwas pretty good at the balloon toss but I could never throw far enough:( I think I won 2nd once at the 100 yard dash. I beat the boys so there.

So I am all excited to go home tonight but then realized I have a stupid 9:00 flight instead of my usual 8 so I will get home like at 11 at then I am being shipped out to LA fri morning. I am going to stay the night since I want to see the LA peeps but then I get no time with MAC:( SAD SAD SAD. 3 more weeks then I am DONE!

no more wine please

yup - went out last night for dinner. Not only did we end up spending a freaking CRAP load of money - but we had shots after dinner. WHY? I don;t know - cuz we were the only ones at the bar and the waiters were all nice and it was the Manager's first day as Manager! I bonded with one of the waitresses - she was telling me some city hotspots! We had this appetizer called the Coastal Tour...it had everything I would ever want - scallops, mussels, clams, oysters, shrimp!!! It was amazing. Unfortunately they didn;t warn us about the freaking size of this appetizer. Even with 3 people we did not need our entrees after that dish. So warning to everyone - be weary of ordering an item that has a price listed as MARKET. Learned that the hard way - our appetizer was $80!!! Can you believe it??!!! So insane.

Of course such a heavy meal kept me from making my pilates class today:( But I did manage to get my butt up to do some cardio!

I am listening to music right now and I am so proud of myself for finally learning how to work with music on! This took me a while. I am so easily distracted and I love singing along to every song in my head but now I am the master!

what's the deal with this deep throat guy being all over the news? calm down people.

Umm paris and paris are engaged? it makes me ill thinking how much money they have between them. when am I going to get some mula??!!